We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Gift Horse

by Debrider

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price

     

1.
Gift Horse 04:45
I don’t remember when his touch Became a chore and not enough Or when I needed all the voids Filled to the brim with shiny toys The kind who smile and kiss your lips And trace maps in your fingertips Then turn the page like turning tricks And leave you behind with no goodbye Goodbye So quick So quick You are my gift horse You are my gift horse You are my gift horse Can I look into your mouth Can I look into your mouth Can I look into your mouth His rising chest right next to me Has no clue the emptiness I’d like to just break his heart But it would leave too big a mess So rather I’ll let you break mine And spread the pieces all around They get stepped on and forgotten But if you dig they can be found Be found Be found Be found You are my gift horse You are my gift horse You are my gift horse Can I look into your mouth Can I look into your mouth Can I look into your mouth Can I look into your mouth Fill me up inside so whole So I can feel like something new Without the lust of Friday night I’ll be wishing I could still taste you When I get home to my gift horse I’ll look straight into his mouth I don’t like what I see inside But yet I beg he’ll stick around You are my gift horse You are my gift horse You are my gift horse Can I look into your mouth Can I look into your mouth Can I look into your mouth Can I look into your mouth
2.
Next To You 05:03
Lying next to you I feel as lonely as can be There might as well not be Anyone here right next to me That empty space might be An even better sight to see Lying next to you I wish I wasn’t stripped so bare My gaping chest and naked limbs Your nightstand with my underwear I thought that we’d mean more this time But I’m worse off for the wear Lying next to me I wonder if you feel a thing I look over and see another Girls necklace and earring Im wondering if she cried too Or had too many drinks Laying next to me You’re so oblivious The silence I force into sheets The lies are dangerous They make me feel okay and safe But later I’ll be torn to shreds Laying next to you I really want to die But I can’t leave and honestly I wouldn’t even try I’m stuck here in this freezing bed This limbo of despair The one we stained then go our ways As if we never cared
3.
4.
Stick a fork in me Because I’m done Over saturated with the blood Of expectations, salutations Meaningless confirmations It all means nothing All the suffering Although I’d hoped It’d give me something But who needs really that much We’re all dying at every touch I forget what it feels like To even feel right So I’ll just wait so quiet It might not come But that’s just fine It’s fine, it’s fine
5.
Little Girl 03:39
She's been putting on her dress Her drawer of lace and bows Next to her wooden, girlish bed Is locked so no one knows The rusted blades and crumble cake Her matted combs and dolls The ones she kept from childhood From Dad who never calls She's been sifting through her teeth Bloodied, baby, small The ones she ripped right from her mouth A box contains them all She kept them to remember what it felt like to be weak They rattle like maracas When the wooden bed will creak She stares up at the chipping mould Her world is small and always cold She wonders why you didn't call Or if you cared at all The answer lies in pillow stains Soiled linens, window panes Mildew spreads across the post The ones she clings on tight Dirtying her tiny hands for yet another night As she washes all her sins Right down the bathroom sink She longs for night to take her in So she won't have to think
6.
Emily 06:38
I’ll never be like Emily She’s so much softer Softer than me I think she’s a nurse Or does she work in a library Library She glows and sways so perfectly You’ll always choose her Rather than to stay with me I’ll never be Emily Emily I’ll never be like Emily She’s so much softer Softer than me I think she’s a nurse Or does she work in a library Library She glows and sways so perfectly You’ll always choose her Rather than to stay with me I’ll never be Emily Emily Emily I’ll never be I’ll never be Emily, Emily You always wanted Emily She led her old cheerleading team She says she’s sorry all the time Even though that’s not what she means What she means Sometimes I wish I was Emily My voice is too loud for your ears My problems are all that you hear But you’ll never love someone like me ‘Cause when you’re drunk and fucking me You make love to girls like Emily I’ll never be Emily Emily

credits

released December 30, 2018

All original songs written and composed by Lia Pisa-Relli and Debrider

“Billie Holiday” originally performed by Warpaint and written by Emily Kokal, Theresa Wayman, Jenny Lindberg, William Robinson

Recorded and mixed by Zachary Antonioli
Mastered by Jack Hubbell and Zachary Antonioli

Debrider is

Lia Pisa-Relli - Guitar/Vocals/Synth/Lyrics
John Wicker - Drums
Austin Miller - Bass

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Debrider Richmond, Virginia

Sad, dreamy tunes to wash your dirty laundry.

contact / help

Contact Debrider

Streaming and
Download help

Report this album or account

If you like Debrider, you may also like: