1. |
Gift Horse
04:45
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I don’t remember when his touch
Became a chore and not enough
Or when I needed all the voids
Filled to the brim with shiny toys
The kind who smile and kiss your lips
And trace maps in your fingertips
Then turn the page like turning tricks
And leave you behind with no goodbye
Goodbye
So quick
So quick
You are my gift horse
You are my gift horse
You are my gift horse
Can I look into your mouth
Can I look into your mouth
Can I look into your mouth
His rising chest right next to me
Has no clue the emptiness
I’d like to just break his heart
But it would leave too big a mess
So rather I’ll let you break mine
And spread the pieces all around
They get stepped on and forgotten
But if you dig they can be found
Be found
Be found
Be found
You are my gift horse
You are my gift horse
You are my gift horse
Can I look into your mouth
Can I look into your mouth
Can I look into your mouth
Can I look into your mouth
Fill me up inside so whole
So I can feel like something new
Without the lust of Friday night
I’ll be wishing I could still taste you
When I get home to my gift horse
I’ll look straight into his mouth
I don’t like what I see inside
But yet I beg he’ll stick around
You are my gift horse
You are my gift horse
You are my gift horse
Can I look into your mouth
Can I look into your mouth
Can I look into your mouth
Can I look into your mouth
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2. |
Next To You
05:03
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Lying next to you
I feel as lonely as can be
There might as well not be
Anyone here right next to me
That empty space might be
An even better sight to see
Lying next to you
I wish I wasn’t stripped so bare
My gaping chest and naked limbs
Your nightstand with my underwear
I thought that we’d mean more this time
But I’m worse off for the wear
Lying next to me
I wonder if you feel a thing
I look over and see another
Girls necklace and earring
Im wondering if she cried too
Or had too many drinks
Laying next to me
You’re so oblivious
The silence I force into sheets
The lies are dangerous
They make me feel okay and safe
But later I’ll be torn to shreds
Laying next to you
I really want to die
But I can’t leave and honestly
I wouldn’t even try
I’m stuck here in this freezing bed
This limbo of despair
The one we stained then go our ways
As if we never cared
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3. |
Billie Holiday
05:22
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4. |
Lover's Lullaby
03:42
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Stick a fork in me
Because I’m done
Over saturated with the blood
Of expectations, salutations
Meaningless confirmations
It all means nothing
All the suffering
Although I’d hoped
It’d give me something
But who needs really that much
We’re all dying at every touch
I forget what it feels like
To even feel right
So I’ll just wait so quiet
It might not come
But that’s just fine
It’s fine, it’s fine
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5. |
Little Girl
03:39
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She's been putting on her dress
Her drawer of lace and bows
Next to her wooden, girlish bed
Is locked so no one knows
The rusted blades and crumble cake
Her matted combs and dolls
The ones she kept from childhood
From Dad who never calls
She's been sifting through her teeth
Bloodied, baby, small
The ones she ripped right from her mouth
A box contains them all
She kept them to remember what it felt like to be weak
They rattle like maracas
When the wooden bed will creak
She stares up at the chipping mould
Her world is small and always cold
She wonders why you didn't call
Or if you cared at all
The answer lies in pillow stains
Soiled linens, window panes
Mildew spreads across the post
The ones she clings on tight
Dirtying her tiny hands for yet another night
As she washes all her sins
Right down the bathroom sink
She longs for night to take her in
So she won't have to think
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6. |
Emily
06:38
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I’ll never be like Emily
She’s so much softer
Softer than me
I think she’s a nurse
Or does she work in a library
Library
She glows and sways so perfectly
You’ll always choose her
Rather than to stay with me
I’ll never be Emily
Emily
I’ll never be like Emily
She’s so much softer
Softer than me
I think she’s a nurse
Or does she work in a library
Library
She glows and sways so perfectly
You’ll always choose her
Rather than to stay with me
I’ll never be Emily
Emily
Emily
I’ll never be
I’ll never be
Emily, Emily
You always wanted Emily
She led her old cheerleading team
She says she’s sorry all the time
Even though that’s not what she means
What she means
Sometimes I wish I was Emily
My voice is too loud for your ears
My problems are all that you hear
But you’ll never love someone like me
‘Cause when you’re drunk and fucking me
You make love to girls like Emily
I’ll never be Emily
Emily
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